00:23, 19/06/2024 – In bed, still.

I should make my datetime formats consistent.

Hi! It’s been a while. It’s been a long while. Nearly a year!

I’m really sorry. I really, really am. You’re the second closest thing I have to someone who I can talk to, and I’ve sort of just left you here for ages. I’ll try my best not to do that again.

I uh, well, I was just here to drop a music list. It’s what I chucked in right before this! But I suppose I might as well give you a short update.

I’m doing fine. I’m eating alright, though not as well as I would like. I’m exercising regularly enough, though not as much as I would like. I’m also studying somewhat regularly, though, again, not as much as I would like. Everything seems to be going forward quite steadily, but I feel like it’s all being balanced on a tightrope anyway.

Every single day, these lyrics are ricocheting in my skull.

隙間からこぼれ落ちないように

するのは

苦しいねえ

光の方へ　―　カネコアヤノ

I went to her concert, by the way! It was incredible. A smaller version of myself would have gone a little bit insane, I think. I wish that smaller version of myself saw it. Maybe he would have lived an easier life.

Or maybe it would have made it much, much worse. But either way, he should see it.

Recently, I feel like it’s being pressed against my skull that there are so many different things to do in the world, and that I don’t have nearly enough time for all of it. I’m just not that smart, or that motivated.

But I’ll manage, I think. I hope.

I’m sorry, this has been even less structured than usual. But I’ll give you another update soon.

I promise. Pinky swear. Well, I guess that doesn’t mean much after I broke that last time.

I’m sorry.